maoftw

It's a windowless room, its walls were covered in thick black ash. The kind that when you touch it it just broke apart and fell off. There was this naked man leaning against the wall, pale, frail and hollow. When I reached there his legs were already gone. I wasn't  actually there you see, since he's alone in the room. He knew I was there though, and of course he didn't talk to me, not physically at least. But somehow I could just feel him, as if we were one. He told me he's dying, he had not eaten anything for an unimaginable long time. He was starving, and he had just eaten his legs. He ate his own legs. He ate his own legs. Now he's still dying. He scratched and dug his abdomen open with fingers, and started eating his entrails. He never said a single word or uttered a sound, picking out his contents in such slow motion and bringing them to his mouth to chew on them so disturbingly and gently, as if kissing a lover. He was crying mute as he was doing so, he was shaking and his face was all twisted up. It was not pain he felt I knew. He was just too sad and disappointed that he was doing this to himself. He just kept on crying and shaking and picking out bits of his bloody reds. I just watched it all happen with something clenching on my heart so fucking tightly I swear I was dying.

Then I woke up from this madness in the early morning in my bunk. I have been the only person sleeping there for weeks. It was raining like crazy outside, and the sky was dark gray and  made everything seemed monochrome. The sadness was so fucking bone-crushing I was almost suicidal.

It's real and it's not funny.

If I made enough wrong turns, maybe I'd end up back where I was?

Crawl to the edge...

Fall back again...

My yesterdays...

Fall far away...

So far away...

All the while...

And I run...

Bitten all the while...

Lead the way...

And come back again...

Don't break, just because you're lost.



I walk the road I paved. And I watch with everything, while the world I've built fades away. For nothing.

After going through many things that I find hard to share with the others, I think I have become much more quiet than before. Weeks of restlessness and the burden of responsibility had very much numbed my senses and knocked the laughter out of me. I'm afraid I've changed into someone I would never dream to become. Once again, I find it almost impossible to tell the tales. Well, like some wise man once said, What else can you do? SUCK THUMB. If there is one single soul mate u may find there, the thumb is always your best friend. I've grown weary irritated of people asking me the same old question of "how life inside?" Why, I'm speechless. Really, I don't know what to say at all, in the end, "it's pretty fine" is the fastest way to get out of the conversation. I don't what to compare Ninja with other companies for the welfare we would never enjoy anymore, I will just do what I can to make the best out of the worst (stealing night snacks from Orion?) Many old things are forgotten, and many new ones are learnt, though I still like to keep myself.

The funny thing is, of all the people I tried to recall in my head these days, everything about you was a blur. There's nothing to be remembered, now you are nothing but a name.

Ooooo, new fish! Eh guys we've got some fresh meat 'ere!!

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K, I feel quite cheap C+V-ing lyrics, but well.

I want a dog. I really want a dog.

So it's finally over for me. Despite all the shit I've said (things like "Ima spend 30 minutes during H3 and drill a hole on the table and FUCK IT when it's ova!" and "Ima drill a hole on the wall so I fuck the schl!!"), unluckily to everyone who were there I didn't do any of these. Could have been so much furn. Well, I was toatally indulged in the paper, it was only when the teacher was collecting the papers it SUDDENLY came to my head that "huh, what? Sweet jesus it's over. Man I'm so fucked." So basically I had this mixed feeling but still I was very very calm.



I did tear my entry proof into shreds though.

I was bored and I was scanning through ancient msn chat logs.











Man that's some fucked up shit seriously.

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MEME:


Quite interestingly, the first question hit right at the spot.

1. How would Ben Toh insult Szuan?
Ans: I can't answer this question, but if it is changed to "How would Ben Toh not insult Szuan?" the answer will be "No way in hell."

2. Oh no, Monkey Wu got kidnapped by aliens! What do you say once they get back?
Ans: AHAHAHAHAHAHA lololol noob shit gay fag newbie woowoo! woo aahaah!! How was it loser hey what's that is that ass-probe?

3. What do you think of Szuan?
Ans: Horizontal asymtope, X=> +/- infinity, fat tighs, yet very short skirt, noob, act cute, flirt whenever possible.

4. If Robert Wilks played in a movie, what kind of character would they play?
Ans: Oh gosh this meme is psychic. The first time he came to class I told Derek:"Dude his face like got 2nd degree burn liddat, and he looks like the average scheming villian in any James Bond movie who will eventually fail and die at his own hands, me serious."

5. Does Fang Wei Cheng make you hot?
Ans: FUCK YEAH!!!!!!!!! More than anybody else. You put him and Jessica Alba together I'll tell Alba to fuck off.

6. What's your fondest memory of Derek?
Ans: Malaysian Gay boy who DEFINITELY has a girlfriend somewhere just you wait I will find out.

7. What's your fondest memory of Mao?
Ans: He's soo awesome it's not even funny anymore, in fact there's a blog all about him. I think it's called maoftw.livejournal.com if im not wrong.

8. Have you dreamt of Lilong before?
Ans: If yes can I touch your fats?

9. Does Denyse have any pets?
Ans: You don't want to know. Seriously you DO NOT. There's something that is better left unknown. The burden of truth kills.

10. Describe Kaixin in one word.
Ans: Sodomy.


Done.

This is some hilarious shit hahaha. I just poped by SMB because I was kinda bored, and I saw the post about unclaimed lost items. Man this shit is fucking funny, check out what kind of things are there waiting to be claimed:


Mickey Mouse pencil box
TORO music album

lulz wait wait...

Straws
Satay sticks
Plastic bags

Wtf hahaha plastic bags??

MYUK Accessories - "Then I was like NO" pencil case with student photo + CASIO scientific calculator inside

LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL

Construction paper + Peel Fresh notebook with Fiona Xie on its cover + Markers + Highlighter

Peel Fresh notebook with Fiona Xie on its cover !!!!! ROFL OH SHIT OHHH SHIIIIIIT!!!! HAHAHHAH

Arrogant Bear green pencil box with thumbdrive in it
Orange small comb with blue cover

Holy shit this is damn cute... this is fucking cute.

www.cracked.com/article_15231_7-reasons-21st-century-making-you-miserable.html


Nobody's gonna read this anyway LULz.






EDIT: but everybody just needs to.  :D

I feel the immense need to hide, rant, self-hate and toss things around. I remembered someone saying, it would be hard to get back to normal life again. Yes to that cuz I AM currently fucked up in the mind. I dont know, I better get out of this mentality before it's too late to settle down for A's.

...with Payable On Death once more.








.....Aaaand of course, Sonny's dreads






.....although it's not there anymore  )'=